No-one ever told me I was a blogger

I haven't fallen off the face of the earth I just lost myself for a while.
Its been 6 days since I last posted, so lets call that 6 years in the blogging world.
I lost inspiration, which to be honest it is still lost. I was hurting, and I didn't think sharing that with you and the world would help.  I was wrong.
Being unemployed sucks.
You see I had an interview, my second out of a total of 85 applications. Learning Mentor, the kind of job that I've been wanting to do since I was 6 years old, and here I was 24 and finally I had the opportunity.
I guess you know what happened.....
After days and days of early mornings and late nights prepping for this interview; I didn't get the job.
I was devastated. I stupidly put my future into that interview.
I thought it was going to sort my life out, let me move out of my parents home, be financially stable, and visit friends; because not being able to do that really does suck.
I realise now though after days of calming down that it would have only done that on the surface.,
For some reason or another, at the moment I'm not quite sure, God just knew that job wasn't right for me and he has something more fantastic and magical planned. Something perfect for me, it just might not be right now.


Unemployment = no money.
Complete bummer!
Some people don't understand how I have no money to visit friends/family but I'm able to go on holiday.
The honest truth is paying off my debts and being financially stable is more important than visiting friends right now. I love them all dearly, but I have to think about my future, however boring that maybe.
As for holidays, I'm going to Italy in 9 weeks. I've saved up for these trips for years/months.

This is why I've been 'away', I didn't mean for it to turn into a rant.

6 comments

Mia @ The Chronicles of Chaos said...

I'm so sorry, hun. But I think you are absolutely right, that God knows this is not the right opportunity for you and He has something much better in store for you. Sorry that you are hurting, but you have lots of lovely bloggy friends out here who have shoulders you can cry on or vent to if you need it! HUGS!!

Julie Marie said...

Aw. Helen, I've been there. losing my way. letting my entire life sink into a single disappointment. but u are right, God DOES have something better. his ways are always higher than our ways. thankfully, because sometimes what I think I want is just plain idiotic. love ya girlie.

Miss C Flash said...

Aww hun, hope you get a job, the right job soon. I'm sure God is sorting you out with the right job in the near future x

Mandy@OrangeAutumn said...

I'm so sorry!! After I was done with school I went through a similar experience. But, guess what?? It get's better! It feels like such a struggle right now and I know that feeling... helpless. This will eventually be a blip in your life when you look back on it. I hope it gets better for you soon dear!

Vanisha @ Vanishas Life In...Australia said...

You didn't get that one because there's something bigger and better waiting for you! Just keeping doing what you have to - I really can't think of anything even a little profound to say to you because I've never been in this situation and I don't want to pretend that I know what it's like. Just know that I'm here for you xoxox

Keely Quinn said...

I can't say that I relate, God has blessed me greatly, but just know that HE knows, someday you'll realize why not this job and the next one, or the one after that was the right one for you. And who knows, you may stumble into something you never thought you would and realize that it's not a forever thing but RIGHT where you need to be for now, and you love it. I wish you the best, and just know that God is taking care of you and that he loves you.

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